Sunday, 6 May 2012

as time goes by...

The last little while has been a bit tricky for me...my grandmother passed away recently. This is a hand coloured photo of her when she was 21. It was a strange mourning time because she had Alzheimer's and has not been "Nana" for some time. She hasn't recognised me in years and more recently she had completely withdrawn and become unable to communicate in any way. So in essence you grieve twice and the grieving is done slowly over years. I felt a bit of guilt as I'd not been to visit as much as I "should", I also felt very nostalgic looking through the piles of photos for the power point presentation I made for the funeral. It's a time when you are confronted with your own mortality- Nana would have been 100 in November and up until recently she had lived a full life- but death is inevitable. I helped Mum plan the funeral and there are so many choices to make, I ended up telling my kids two songs I'd like for my funeral and told them to pick the cheapest coffin available- I'd prefer a cardboard box, Such a waste of money really. Even simple funerals cost a fortune! I'm glad that I've got life insurance to cover these costs for the kids when that happens...This post is tad morbid really, but that's where I've been of late. I've also been actually doing some organising and not thinking or talking about organising. As a result I've been a bit absent in the blog sphere of late...but I find I'm not the only one. And then when I get time to spend online I'm distracted by that ever so addictive pinterest!

5 comments:

inkberryblue said...

I'm sorry for your loss. I wish I'd spent more time with my grandma in her declining years too...
Your grandmother was a beautiful young woman.

I'm hoping to get back to blogging sometime soon. In the meantime I'm really enjoying Pinterest. I love looking through your boards ~ you have a fabulous collection of pins!

2paw said...

I'm so sad to read your nan died. It must have been hard for you with her not knowing her family for such a long time. I love the photo, my nan had hand coloured wedding photos and I am so old that my baby photos were hand coloured a little too. I am ancient!!!
I have been less present on my blog too, I just had nothing to show for my life!!!! Well, except Labradors.....

2paw said...

PS I have a Pinterest thing but I am just not sure what to do when I get thee!!

Kirti said...

Oh love! Blessings to you and your nana. Always good to put your affairs in order and then get on with the business of living! No blogging for me of late either - all uni these days. Thinking of you xxxxx

one little acorn said...

Yes, you are definitely not the only one... being absent from blogging that is! But tonight I am doing some catch up reading and it's nice to see you.
So sad to hear about your Grandmother, the photo is beautiful. Didn't they all look so glamorous!