To tell the truth I am having a bit of a hard time at the moment. I can't quite seem to "get my groove on." I've kinda lost myself and have so much to do and am totally unsure of where to begin. I've been a bit depressed and have avoided blogging as a result.
My house currently reflects the state of my mind and I am terrified that I will have someone come to visit and they will see the chaos in which I am existing at the moment.
My lovely chicks decided to swap rooms and paint in the week I started back at school. This means that there is furniture and boxes and assorted sundry items strewn and stuffed around the place while this minor renovation is being executed. I hope it is sorted soon. In the process I have lost my camera batteries (the rechargeable ones.) and have been resisting buying new ones at $24 a set I resent having to replace that which I have at least two sets of floating somewhere about.
I am finding that my kids are really taking much of my time and energy again- they are good kids but the shift in their state from teens to young adults takes a bit of getting used to. (It is very much like the three year old stage all over again.)
I am torn, feeling almost guilty about looking forward to Bantam Boy taking an extended holiday and just having me and Chicky Babe about, and the actual thought of him being physically gone from the house and from town and the state! He has been living it up a bit staying out late and I have no desire to curb his enjoyment of life between school and uni (He got a really good TER and has been accepted into the uni course of his choice- for which he has deferred.) HOWEVER....When he is out late and comes home in the wee small hours I can't sleep well and this is not such a great problem once or twice but as a regular thing I find it very draining as I can't sleep until 2 0r 3pm. I have to get up early and go off to work and be peppy with a bunch of school kids. I'm finding it a bit hard. I've had to ask him to stop or a the very least consider how it affects the rest of the family. The other night he came home at 2;30am hopped into the shower and then at 5;05 I woke him up lying asleep with the shower going full pelt and steam filling half the bathroom. (I struggle with this too because his father used to come home drunk and fall asleep on the toilet or on the bathroom floor and it is too familiar to me. But I try not to compare him to his dad and try to react to his behaviours as his behaviours not as extensions of those I put up with for years- he is only 18 his father was almost 30!)
I have recently been told that the pain in my hip is not from the fall I had- well it may have been bought on by the injury but not caused by it- I have arthritis in my hip. Bugger. I am officially old.
So with all this and the fact I've just started back at school I have little crafting, crochet or art work to share. The positive thing is that one of the ladies I teach with is keen to learn how to do lino printing and we have decided to have our friday afternoon drinks in the art room and have an informal art lesson. I really need to do this for me. And maybe I will just go and buy myself those batteries after all so I can take photos of those things I have made lately to share...and just maybe it will motivate me to crack the whip and get this place into some sort of order!